The Esthetic Apostle

April 2019

No Es Amor

by

Your smile, sweet flowersElectric eyes, a girly smileCurves for days, sass all nightDancing to the mariachisLaughing like there’s no tomorrowChasing the children chasing each otherStaring at each other from across the roomSmiling every timeWe saw the future togetherI wanted it todayYou always looked at me differentI always made you laughWe’d always talk shit, hiding our real intentionsSo our eyes did the talkingWishing our hands could do the dancingSo we waitedWe were still young and stupidYet we learned so muchBut when we couldn’t hide it anymoreOthers began to noticeThe games became the only gameWe were not playing it rightWe were from different worldsFrom different livesBut we didn’t careAt least, I didn’tWe were warned and threatenedBut it was too lateSoon the night was our dance floorWe loved and sang as oneBut always in secretSometimes, that made it sweeterMade it more dangerousAdded to our funThe forbidden made it all the more passionateAnd each night when we said goodbyeWe kissed at laughed, children committing their first crimesRunaways clinging to loveBut it wasn’t love, you saidOur future can never beOur families would wage war, our friends would rise upYou’re too you, I’m too meOur worlds would never embrace, only collideI’d bite my tongue, pretend not to be hurtBecause I still had you, thought time was on my sideHow foolishAll good things endAll great things are torn awayYour brothers threatened violenceYour mother threatened banishment“He’s not like us”It was more than fun to me, more than just an adventureIt wasn’t easy for you either,You just pretended to be stronger“This isn’t really love”Speak for yourself.