CBH Blues I

Left Des PlainesThe screams in the cracks of my mind continueI spent so much time crying for escapeOnly to remain unsure of my sanity on the outsideThe cool May air both calms and aggravatesThe rain is a blessing and a source of distressI spent so much time crying for homeOnly to remain unsure where home should be:Basketballs and the gentle whir of the staff-Controlled laundry machinesStiff markers and All About The BenjaminsCafeteria chicken wings and a flimsy pillowBeing out is making my heart pound and my stomach churnEven if I have my own filled pillow and apple-sour cherry pieInk pens and notebooks with metal coilsI spent so much time crying for home only to doubt whereI should find home at all